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The Misconception
      I am so lack of determination, i really think that i'm very weak. I seriously need to mug on my studies, i can't afford to fail my 'N' level. But many things seems to bother me so much, i'm damn fustrated lor, hais. howhow? tell me how? Who are those people that truly cares about me? Who are those people that are true to me and not putting on invisible mask? who? Who are those people that willing to listen to my weal & woes repeatedly? Why do i still brood over things that I shouldn't and unworthy? So many thoughts & mixed feelings, hais. wake up girl, it's really time to clear your thoughts!
 Hello people. it's 11.30pm already, yet im still not on my bed. Because i have to submit my testimonial by tonight. I'm cracking my brain for like 2 hours to plan how to write man, haha. I'm so tired now, but I suddenly have the urge of blogging . Hence, this is where I am now, haha. My N levels is less than two weeks time, wish me achieve of good grades alrights ;) I shall blog again, goodnights! Trying so hard, I really tried.. Does anyone knows that I really tried my very best? Hais. Everything will be over soon, be strong :)
     Some recent pictures uploaded, sorry that I didnt update so specificly. & I know I update approximately once in a few weeks? Haha, lazy lah. Ok, Went out with Carilyn Darling last week. It's been so long that we didn't go out together. So happy to meet up with her, as she was there to listen to my woes & comfort me, thanks :) loves! Specially want to thanks all my friends for being there for me all these while :) I can't believe for what I've heard, really. I did smell a rat earlier on, but I can't force people to hand their phone over & check it. Though I think I did force , but I still fails to see it. Since then, I ponder whether I'm the one who think too much, & i guess so. However, when I heard of something, it really hits the reality! How hurtful, how heartbroken.... This is the most saddening thing, really. I finally know what's going on, what's hiding behing me throughout that month. Perharsp I do not know everything, but this info that I've heard is more than enough! I just really cannot believe it, maybe I still think that he is still the 'OLD' him. But the fact is I dont know where the 'OLD' him had gone. Maybe I'm too naive or can I say that I'm stupid? I thought this love was exceptional, as he shows how much love for me in the past. But how things have change so fast, really fast. Now I finally know, even a guy who loves you terribly, things will still change. Forget it, I have so much to say, but I don't intend to carry on writing anymore, I'm tired. I will get over soon :)    It ended so fast, just like this. Four months ago, we're still friend i guess. At that point of time, I'm still enjoying the unconditonal love from you. Though the time being together with you just three months plus, but there's really too much unforgettable memories. So much for me to reminisce, however, too much reminscing is excruciating. This feeling now is excruciating too. No matter how it goes, i'll still get over it, I promise. It's really so hard for me to believe that..... I'm so tired. I'll miss you definitely, love. |
